This weekend I am going to Des Moines to recieve training to chair NAMI Connections meetings. This is something that I applied to do about a year ago, and just a few weeks ago someone called and asked if I was still interested. At first I wasnt sure if I could get the dates off (it is three days) but then things at my job started to go south and I put my two weeks notice in. Today was supposed to be my last day at work, but I was asked by my boss if I would like to stay on, and I decided to give it another shot. I think I will only work part time though. Going straight to full time was a bit much for me. And working as much as I was, I wasn't able to schedule therapy appointments (I have been to see my therapist ONCE since I started my job in November), and I haven't been able to be as involved with NAMI as I want to be. I know it sounds cheesey, but I need to be able to spend some time with my peers. It is important for me to have a place to go where I can just be myself. That's what NAMI is for me. I didn't realise how much I have missed my NAMI peeps until I stopped in to say "hi" a few weeks ago. I am really excited that I am still going to be able to work, but that my schedule will be lighter so I will be able to do the things I need to do to take care of myself.
Speaking of which, did I totally just miss National Eating Disorders Awareness Week? I had alot of drama going on this week and sort of forgot to stick my head out of my own little misery hole to see what was going on in the world. How did I miss NEDAW??? I know that there was stuff going on on campus. They usually get a good speaker...last year Jenni Schaefer came and she was amazing. I think another well known author was coming this year but I am not sure. I hate it when I get so busy that I space something like that that is really important to me.
There is just so much that I want to do. I want to start going back to that ED support group that I told that lady I would help out with and then sort of just never showed up (boo lisa). I want to be more active in my local NAMI, beyond even doing the Connections group. They always need people to help on committees, like fund raising or event organizing and stuff like that. I want to work....a little....mostly because I need money. I want to organize my house and learn to sew and grow a fantastic garden and take my kids on camping trips and be a great mom. There is just so much stuff I want to do, and then there is the everyday stuff I have to do. How does one know where to begin???
Well this post was sort of all over the place. Mostly I just wanted to share about my NAMI training this weekend. I am excited to meet new people from different NAMI chapters, and I think that just getting away (I am staying at the conference center) and focusing on doing something for me, that I want to do, is just what I need right now (even if that sounds a bit selfish).
BTW typing this has been awful, because last time I used the computer I was eating nuts (the kind you have to crack first) and now there are bits of shells under certain keys and they wont go down all the way, so I have to keep going back and fixing words that are missing letters. That'l teach me!
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