this is just a quick update. I will write more later. I was hospitalised on a psych unit for a week and got out about a week ago. While i was there i found out that my mom had a reccurance of a melanoma ( skin cancer) that she had 15 years ago and it is in her lymph system wich could be bad. I will find out more about that this wed. I also got some more very bad news that i am not sure that i want to talk about yet or at all. Needless to say i havent been dealing with any of this very well and my psych doc added seroquel to my regimen ( im off all the benzo's) which has helped alot. Before the seroquel i was worrying about things constantly and crying alot and my stomach hurt from the stress so i could barely eat. Now i feel much better but the downside is that i am not really emoting at all and am feeling quite sedated. But i guess that is ok for now because i can function ( even if i am functioning like a robot). I am wondering a little bit if i am on too many meds. I am on lexapro, topamax, pristiq, risperidal, seroquel, and trazodone. I typed them into this website where you can check your drug regimen for interactions and there were like 7 moderate interactions and 3 severe. But they were all ones i knew about before, like sedation and overheating and seratonin syndrome. Oh, and i wont be going on the grapefruit diet anytime soon. Ha ha laugh that was a little joke :) . I am just going to try to trust my doctor that he is going to try to do what is best for me. Peace out :)
I'm turning 31 next week but somedays I feel like I'm 14, other days it seems like I'm 80. I'm married to Chris, and have two wonderfull girls. Emma is 8, and Anne is 3. I have been fighting anorexia and bulimia for 19 years. I also struggle with treatment-resistant depression.
Each day is a fight, to make it through the day, to be a good mom and wife, to love myself. This blog makes it a little easier