AArrrgh I have a serious problem.....................
So who has seen the new vh1 show "The OCD Project"? I watched it last week and ever since then I can't stop thinking about Dr. David Tolin, the doctor on the show. CAN'T FREAKIN STOP! I think about him when I wake up. I think about him when I put on my makeup. I think about him when I am making my girl's lunch. I was freaking thinking about him when while I was cleaning up Annie's puke this morning! (she had a brief stomache thing but she is fine now)
Dood, this is a problem for me. It's making me feel really guilty cause I'm, like, married, you know. But i'm not having adulterous thoughts about Dr. Tolin, or anything like that. It's more like I cant stop thinking about how carring and compassionate he is, and how good he is at what he does. Like, he is the ultimate therapist. I can't stop thinking about what it would be like if he was my therapist, and I would see him every day, and he would fix all of my problems and take care of me forever. The end.
So no, it doesn't have anything to do with sex (eww) or anything like that. Still, being married, I don't feel comfortable thinking about this guy so much. I mean, I know if Chris was thinking about another woman all the time I would be really hurt.
Plus, it kind of hurts. It hurts to think about someone all the time and know that they don't even know you exist and you will probably never even meet.
I'm not sure why I am obsessing about this particular tv therapist, and why now, but I have some theories. I may or may not bring this up with my therapist when I see her this week (but I will be so embarassed!). I really should nip this one in the bud though, before I find myself driving cross country in an adult diaper with a trunkful of ropes and chloroform.
One thought occurs to me, though. Dr. Tolin says that the treatment for OCD is "exposure". Sounds like he wants me to track him down and expose myself to him. That's what you heard, right?
Please please comment and let me know what you think or if you think I am a psycho or crazy or if you are also obsessed with someone famous so I won't feel so bad ok I'm done now.
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