Have you ever had to pee so bad that the effort to keep it in was making you feel like you were going to pass out?
I am trying to start walking regularly again, but the past two nights I have gotten barely two miles from my house before I have to pee. If Chris was with me I would just duck into the woods while he stands lookout, but by myself I am not going to chance it on such a well-run trail. Getting arrested for public urination would put a dent in my efforts to build my reputation as a sane person. So I end up just having to cut my walk short and the walk home is very uncomfortable. Maybe I should choose a different time to walk, but after dinner really is the best time for me, and it also helps diffuse the anxiety I feel after eating.
Oh, and I want to point out that the evening walks have NOTHING to do with what Dr. Goat said to me the other day. In fact, I had been planning to start excercising again before I saw him.
I was going to start Wed, but after my meeting with Dr. Goat I decided to postpone it until thurs, because I wanted to absolutely clear to myself that I was NOT taking the doctor's advice. I purposefully did NOT excercise on Wed just because Dr. Goat told me to.
Yes, I really am that mature.
Judgement and Regrets
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