Well, i am still here, and still eating, with no purging yet today. I made burritos for dinner (Cinco de Mayo) and they were pretty decent. Also I have been munching Brach's jellybeans like crazy and i lost a bit of filling on a Nips last night. My bad.
But the really big fun of the day is that Emma has strep throat. Chris and I both went to the doctor too, since we are feeling sick. Turns out Chris has an ear infection and I have a sinus infection. So all three of us are on antibiotics. At least Annie is healthy, though!
Since we are all laying low today i rented a few movies. The girls watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks", and right now we are watching "Oceans". Chris and I are going to watch "Men Who Stare at Goats" tonight.
I am feeling pretty ugly today. I look SO OLD without makeup, and even with makeup on, it settles into my lines after only about 15 minutes. I'm tired of looking at my stupid face. I'm obsessed with it. I wish I could afford that StriVectin cream but it is way too expensive. Oh well.
I keep trying to remind myself that I should be greatful, that at least I dont have some kind of facial disfigurement, and that if I did end up with a disfigurement I would be sorry I didn't enjoy what I have right now. I don't know why I am so negative and critical of myself.
That's about it.
Judgement and Regrets
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