Wednesday, May 5, 2010

we are sick today

Well, i am still here, and still eating, with no purging yet today. I made burritos for dinner (Cinco de Mayo) and they were pretty decent. Also I have been munching Brach's jellybeans like crazy and i lost a bit of filling on a Nips last night. My bad.

But the really big fun of the day is that Emma has strep throat. Chris and I both went to the doctor too, since we are feeling sick. Turns out Chris has an ear infection and I have a sinus infection. So all three of us are on antibiotics. At least Annie is healthy, though!

Since we are all laying low today i rented a few movies. The girls watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks", and right now we are watching "Oceans". Chris and I are going to watch "Men Who Stare at Goats" tonight.

I am feeling pretty ugly today. I look SO OLD without makeup, and even with makeup on, it settles into my lines after only about 15 minutes. I'm tired of looking at my stupid face. I'm obsessed with it. I wish I could afford that StriVectin cream but it is way too expensive. Oh well.
I keep trying to remind myself that I should be greatful, that at least I dont have some kind of facial disfigurement, and that if I did end up with a disfigurement I would be sorry I didn't enjoy what I have right now. I don't know why I am so negative and critical of myself.

That's about it.


Cammy said...

Oh no so sorry that you're all sick (except woot for healthy little Annie!). But MAJOR props for eating with no purging today! Definitely give yourself credit where it is due.

And EVERYONE looks like crud when they're sick, Lisa (not that I think you look like crud. You know what I mean, I hope?). Today is not a day to be raking yourself over the coals for appearance! Focus on feeling well, because you're never as beautiful as when you're healthy. And in all of the pictures I've seen of you I've thought you had great skin.

Really glad you had a quiet movie day with your family, remember they love you when you're sick, when you're healthy, they'll love you when you're ancient with real wrinkles as much as they love you now. They want you to be around long enough to *get* the real wrinkles. Hang in there and don't underestimate your awesomeness! said...

I hope everyone feels better soon! (And I hope Annie stays healthy!) Way to go on the eating and the no purging.

Movie day sounds like nice family memory making.

I'm sorry you're having a critical-body/face days... Maybe it'd help to just tell yourself, if you can, "Nope, not gonna go there. I'm not fat. And I don't look old." (Both of those are true, by the way. You are not fat and you don't look old)

Angela E. Gambrel Lackey said...

I'm so sorry everyone (except Annie - crossing fingers she stays well!) is sick at your house.

I know when I don't feel well, I don't feel like I look my best; I feel ugly (well, I feel ugly most of the time, but I need to work through that.)

But you are gorgeous and don't forget it!!!

Sending hugs and healthy vibes your way...


Anonymous said...

thanks for your supportive comment... i should just take off "anonymous" comments since sometimes people can be so mean about ED's.

I think you are beautiful and way to go with no purging today! I'm currently fighting that battle too... it's so easy to give in... stay strong and I"m thinking of you :)

tia @ dietcolagirl

lisalisa said...

yeah, tia, I was wondering myself why anyone would comment anonymously, anyways. I mean, if you are going to comment, especially make negative and judgemental comments, you should own them. That's just my opinion.

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Lou Lou said...

oh no i hate step throat, funny tho my name is emma too and i am a strep throat and tonsilitis maniac, if im run down it goes straight to the tonsils!
you are so beautiful lisa, and your cute new pixie haircut is so hot! hope you are feeling better, and loved, and i am thinking of you and your sweetie family.
hey checkl my last post, its in over a years time, so maybe youw oud be interested in being a part of something like this?
maybe the whole family coming and just being a part of the group work and anything else you want, who knows, just putting my ideas out there, plus would love to meet you