Monday, March 8, 2010

best therapist ever

I swear, Kim is the best therapist ever!

I realized today after i wrote my last post that I was freaking out and needed some support. SO I got squeezed in to see my therapist. I got there, sat down on the couch, and started shaking and freaking and talking really fast. Kim got me to focus on the past few days an pinpoint when things got really bad. Well, I realized that while I kind of overdid things all week last week and was kind of stressed out by friday, the sh*t didn't really hit the fan until after my visit to Cedar Rapids on sat. I was talking about it with Kim all these emotions started coming out. You know, those messy emotions that make your nose and eyes run, choke you up and have you gasping for air. Those kind of emotions.

I am post-therapy now and doing much better. I was able to make dinner (including asparagus) and even go shopping with the family. Was horrified while trying on swimsuits, but that is another post.

But the most important thing, I think, is I made it through this with no drinking, self-harm, and no Xanax! A major accomplishment!


Keely said...

Yay!!! I am so glad you are feeling better. Sometimes its nice to just walk outta there and be able to take a deeper breath just because your chest feels both figuratively and literally lighter. :)

Maeve said...

YAY! I'm so glad that Kim was able to help.

I hope that you are extremely and completely and utterly proud of yourself for making it through without drugs, alcohol, or self harm.


licketysplit said...

yipee for good therapists! I'm so happy you're feeling better!

Amber Rochelle said...

I tried to leave a comment on your last post earlier but my computer deleted it (ugh) and I was headed out the door and couldn't type it. But my comment was...can you get it to see your psychiatrist for an emergency appointment? Sounds like the therapist appointment was even better than that. I hope the days continue to improve from here.

Sairs said...

I'm glad you're feeling better too. It's good you have a really good therapist! It sucks when you have a few really bad days and you feel like you're just going to explode but don't know why!

Eating Alone said...

Great Job! I'm proud of you.

I Hate to Weight said...

yes, a major accomplishment. i'm having a really difficult time myself with getting thru a rough patch without drinking, klonopin, disordered etc.

as hard as it is, it does make me feel stronger and more real.

and a little proud. hope you're proud of yourself too