I swear, Kim is the best therapist ever!
I realized today after i wrote my last post that I was freaking out and needed some support. SO I got squeezed in to see my therapist. I got there, sat down on the couch, and started shaking and freaking and talking really fast. Kim got me to focus on the past few days an pinpoint when things got really bad. Well, I realized that while I kind of overdid things all week last week and was kind of stressed out by friday, the sh*t didn't really hit the fan until after my visit to Cedar Rapids on sat. I was talking about it with Kim all these emotions started coming out. You know, those messy emotions that make your nose and eyes run, choke you up and have you gasping for air. Those kind of emotions.
I am post-therapy now and doing much better. I was able to make dinner (including asparagus) and even go shopping with the family. Was horrified while trying on swimsuits, but that is another post.
But the most important thing, I think, is I made it through this with no drinking, self-harm, and no Xanax! A major accomplishment!
Judgement and Regrets
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