Dood. I need to find a therapist. Like, seriously.
Part of me was thinking I'm not "sick" enough to get a new therapist. Like I need to lose a bunch of weight first and then it will be obvious that I have issues ect.
Of course, i know this is BS.
I have enough issues to keep me on the couch for another 10 years, easy. I don't need to add relapse into the mix. And, wouldn't it be a good idea to be set up with someone so that in the event of a crisis or relapse I would already have someone I knew and trusted to help me deal with it? I think so. Yes, how very proactive of me.
Also, fall is traditionally a hard time of year for me. Most of my hospitalizations have been in either the fall or the spring. The change of seasons is difficult for me for some reason. I get all emotional and homesick and weird. So it's not like i'm planning on relapsing or anything, but if you fail to plan you plan to fail. I think I saw that on a poster somewhere or something.
Well, guess I better go get busy with the phone book...
Judgement and Regrets
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