Thursday, August 27, 2009

garlic toast.

Ok, so tonight I was making a spaghetti dinner for my family (with spaghetti squash instead of noodles, yum!) and I was putting slices of garlic toast in the oven and I put only 3 slices on the cookie sheet. It was automatic. I never eat the garlic toast. But tonight I paused, and thought about it. I never eat the garlic toast for purely ED reasons. I actually love garlic toast! I usually sneak a bite of Annie's but never have a whole piece myself.

So I started thinking about this and thinking about my "being brave" post I wrote the other night and thought "ok Lisa, it's time to put your money where your mouth is".

But Ed said "garlic toast has no nutritional value! It is just white bread and butter".

"Well," I thought, "but it's tasty".

I began to realize that this was about more than just a piece of bread. It was about making decisions not based on ED. About changing my behavior patterns that keep me unhealthy.

SO I had a piece of garlic toasy with my dinner. It was delicious.


Keely said...

Yay! Way to feel the fear... and do it anyway. :) (hug)

Zena said...

YOU rock!!! you inspiartion you!!!...secrectly ...I love garlic toast!!!

:) I m grinning ear to ear right now!!

Love, T

Alexandra Rising said...

Mmm, sounds good!
I'm also intrigued by this spaghetti squash! What is that?

Eating Alone said...

OMG! I love garlic toast. When I was dieting I'd have to leave the building when someone made that.

I'm make Homer Simpson faces just thinking about it.

I'm so happy for you! Your body was loving the toast too! It's good to be good to yourself.

lisalisa said...

Alexandra- Spaghetti squash is this yellow, football-shaped squash. You cut it in half and scrape the seeds out and put it cut-side down in the oven at 375 for about 45 mins. When it is done you scrape out the insides with a fork and it magically turns into all these strings that look like spaghetti. you can eat it plain or put sauce on it. I was skeptical but it really is good. My 3 year old loves it (the 7 year old, not so much)! said...

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

HUGE APPLAUDS!!!!!!!!!!!


I Hate to Weight said...

great work!!!! i'm glad you could enjoy it too.

i'm slowly getting to the place that food seems like...just food. and some of it is very delicious.

we don't trust ourselves much, do we?

you are working for hard. hope you can pat yourself on the back many times.