thank you so much for all the wonderful, non judgemental support! Seriously, it meant so much to me. I decided, in part because of all the feedback I got on here, to send my friend a message and let her know how I was feeling. It wasn't an angry message. It was kind of similar to what I posted here, without so much of my personal history. And the great news is- we are still friends! She wrote me back right away and told me that she was very sorry, and that she knows she has strong opinions and sometimes she voices them without thinking and it can hurt people. I just feel so much better now. I was so nervous to tell her how I felt. I have only made 2 good friends since we moved here, and I didnt want to lose one of them. I really like her and her honesty is one thing I value about her. But I knew I had to tell her how I felt, or it would be under the surface and probably effect our relationship. i am so proud of myself for being brave. I was just sobbing to my husband last night, so afraid of losing my friend. He gently told me that I need to have more faith in people. maybe he is right.
My other good news- today was Emma's class Valentines party, and it was a smashing success. It was my responsibility to plan and run it. I was having a really hard time with this one. The haloween and christmas parties were easier for some reason. With this one, I procrastinated till the last minute to get things together. I just have been kind of depressed and didn't want to deal with it. So anyways, i went to the school today feeling a bit apprehensive. I just wasn't in the mood to party.
When I got there, though, things went fine. We stood in a circle and played "hot potato" with this little stuffed valentine frog that played "i like to move it move it" when you squeezed its hand. The kid holding the frog when the song stopped was out. So that was convenient since I didnt have to bring a boom box for the game or anything like that. As the kids started to get "out", they worked on valentines day cards for their moms and dads with lace doilies and chocolate hearts I brought. Then we had snacks. There was candy and cookies and chips and rice crispie treats and drinks (i didn't bring all this stuff- i delegated). And the kids exchanged valentines.
The kids kind of know me from the other parties. They are so nice! One little boy even made me a valentine! It was so sweet!
Well that is about it. I hope everyone has a nice valentines day!!
Judgement and Regrets
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