Friday, February 12, 2010

here's to better days!

thank you so much for all the wonderful, non judgemental support! Seriously, it meant so much to me. I decided, in part because of all the feedback I got on here, to send my friend a message and let her know how I was feeling. It wasn't an angry message. It was kind of similar to what I posted here, without so much of my personal history. And the great news is- we are still friends! She wrote me back right away and told me that she was very sorry, and that she knows she has strong opinions and sometimes she voices them without thinking and it can hurt people. I just feel so much better now. I was so nervous to tell her how I felt. I have only made 2 good friends since we moved here, and I didnt want to lose one of them. I really like her and her honesty is one thing I value about her. But I knew I had to tell her how I felt, or it would be under the surface and probably effect our relationship. i am so proud of myself for being brave. I was just sobbing to my husband last night, so afraid of losing my friend. He gently told me that I need to have more faith in people. maybe he is right.

My other good news- today was Emma's class Valentines party, and it was a smashing success. It was my responsibility to plan and run it. I was having a really hard time with this one. The haloween and christmas parties were easier for some reason. With this one, I procrastinated till the last minute to get things together. I just have been kind of depressed and didn't want to deal with it. So anyways, i went to the school today feeling a bit apprehensive. I just wasn't in the mood to party.
When I got there, though, things went fine. We stood in a circle and played "hot potato" with this little stuffed valentine frog that played "i like to move it move it" when you squeezed its hand. The kid holding the frog when the song stopped was out. So that was convenient since I didnt have to bring a boom box for the game or anything like that. As the kids started to get "out", they worked on valentines day cards for their moms and dads with lace doilies and chocolate hearts I brought. Then we had snacks. There was candy and cookies and chips and rice crispie treats and drinks (i didn't bring all this stuff- i delegated). And the kids exchanged valentines.

The kids kind of know me from the other parties. They are so nice! One little boy even made me a valentine! It was so sweet!

Well that is about it. I hope everyone has a nice valentines day!!


Lou Lou said...

this is just the best post ever, made me very happy and proud of you. because confrontation is hard, and i definatley agree we have to put more faith in people, io hardly do, i think people wont like me for all kinds of reasons... when they probably would blow me away with their response just liuke your friend did. im so happy for you that you decoided to share with her, these things can eat up us with beating ourselves up. i just think this is so positive for you, and well done! you are a kind and lovely soul, yay!!!!!

Alexandra Rising said...

You are such a good mom to those little girls. I love reading your stories about class parties and decorating and all the fun things you do with them :)

Cammy said...

I am always SO impressed at what a terrific mother you are. Those girls are lucky to have you! Happy Valentine's Day!

Jenn said...

I am SUPER PROUD of you for sticking up for yourself and writing that letter! It's tough to do but do did it and things turned out well in the end! Yippee for you!!

Keep fighting for yourself!
Jenn said...

I have nothing to say except YOU ROCK!!! I am swelling up inside with pride for you! I am so proud you communicated well with your friend and showed yourself that you are a freaking awesome room mother! You are INCREDIBLE. I wish you could see you the way I see you. I just see a completely amazing person. You've had struggles, you have struggles, but you are a deeply good and talented person. You've come far, you are so smart, you write well, you understand people, you are just.... completely incredible.

Keely said...

Yay!!! I am SO glad you talked with your friend and cleared the air. That is still SO hard for me. :)

And good work with the party! Emma is probably so proud and happy that you coordinate the parties. I remember when I was in elementary school I would volunteer my dad for EVERYTHING. I was so happy when he came to help out with field trips and bring crafts home that the teacher needed done. (He was sooo excited... not... but always did it. :) I always had this huge grin on my face on the way to the car from kindergarden. "Dad! We're going to the zoo and I volunteered you to help!" I loved our station wagon and how it could fit 6 kids easily. :)