Saturday, April 3, 2010

well, here's a bit of good news

So I am feeling a little better today. This morning I was counting my Ativan and i realized that I didn't take a third one on thursday. I just counted wrong or something. So that was a huge relief, and I feel like I am taking the meds responsibly.
I saw Dr. S at the saturday clinic for my vitamin b shot and mentioned to him that the Ativan wasn't working that well so he gave me a weeks worth of Xanax and he wants my husband to come in with me to my appointment next week, just to get his view of how I am handling the benzos. I feel good about this and I am glad I have my husband and my doctor's support. My meds are all still locked up, and I am totally ok with that, especially with having benzo's in the house and all.

I feel so fragile right now but will do just about anything not to have to go to the psych ward. I am just trying to take things one day at a time. Thanks so much for all your support!


battleinmind said...

Your doctor sounds nice :) Good news that you didn't take a 3rd! Hope your days start getting better.

Cammy said...

SO glad that your doctor and husband are being supportive of you. I know it has been a hard time lately, but keep hanging in there. I'm behind on blogs and just read the part about the fake eggs on April Fool's Day. You are an awesome mother!!!

Sairs said...

Glad you have some support there with your husband and doc. I hope you start to feel a little better soon. I hate it when you feel like you don't know what tomorrow will bring, whether good or bad and whether or not you can deal with it. You're doing well.

Kara said...

I'm so sorry that things are so rough right now. I feel like I'm in the same boat too. Almost admitted myself to the hospital yesterday - but then I was like, what am I thinking? Hospitals suck!

Oh, some Xanax sounds so appealing right now... my psychiatrist won't even give me the good stuff because she doesn't trust me.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Telstaar said...

I really like that your doctor appears to be soo responsible and is including your husband in on getting information etc.

I really do hope that you can stay out of the psych ward! I'll definitely be thinking of you lovely, lots and lots and lots

Jenn said...

Sometimes, all we can do is one day at a time and that is OKAY.

Keep your head up and I hope that things start to get better soon.


I Hate to Weight said...

glad you've had some easier moments.

i freak when i think i've taken more meds than i remember. when i took ambien regularly, all bets were off with everything.

your doctor does sound nice and responsible. and your husband too!

hope you have more and more and more and more and more and more easier moments.

Angela E. Gambrel Lackey said...

I'm so glad your husband is so supportive and your doctor is cautious and responsible with the meds. I once had a psychiatrist who gave me Xanax like it was nothing, and this went on for six years. It took months to get off the stuff. My current psychiatrist is extremely cautious with me and meds, and not just benzos (I have bad side effects to many meds,and many meds tend to make me lose what little appetite I have.)

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time; you are such a beautiful person and I hope Easter was peaceful and fun with your family. You will get through this!