Today has been much better. Suprisingly so, since it didn't start out that way.
On my way out the door this morning, the dentist office called and cancelled. So much for the Xanax. I was really tempted to take it anyway, but I didn't. Score one for sanity.
Still, I was pretty down about it. Ridiculous, how much I was looking forward to that little blue pill. Now what to do? I thought about going to the gym, but really didnt want to. I killed some time online and found my friend on FB. She invited me over to her house so our girls could play and we could have lunch. So I made some hummus and headed over there with Annie. And had a great time. And REAL coffee.
Later I came home and had a nice bubble bath. Ate a chocolate. Cooked a good dinner for my family. Drank a lovely diet coke.
Babysat my friend's boys so they could move a couch. As in, look how stable I am! I not only care for my own children, but can babysit as well! Honestly, this is huge for me. I felt really good about it.
Now the girls are in bed and I am getting ready to watch a good movie. At least I hope it will be good.
And I haven't purged in a week.
Judgement and Regrets
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