Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I NEEDED today

Today has been much better. Suprisingly so, since it didn't start out that way.

On my way out the door this morning, the dentist office called and cancelled. So much for the Xanax. I was really tempted to take it anyway, but I didn't. Score one for sanity.

Still, I was pretty down about it. Ridiculous, how much I was looking forward to that little blue pill. Now what to do? I thought about going to the gym, but really didnt want to. I killed some time online and found my friend on FB. She invited me over to her house so our girls could play and we could have lunch. So I made some hummus and headed over there with Annie. And had a great time. And REAL coffee.

Later I came home and had a nice bubble bath. Ate a chocolate. Cooked a good dinner for my family. Drank a lovely diet coke.

Babysat my friend's boys so they could move a couch. As in, look how stable I am! I not only care for my own children, but can babysit as well! Honestly, this is huge for me. I felt really good about it.

Now the girls are in bed and I am getting ready to watch a good movie. At least I hope it will be good.

And I haven't purged in a week.


Tasty Health Food said...

I'm glad things are improving for you, Lisa! I know nothing about pills or stuff like that, but I think it's best for you to kick these habits while you can.

now.is.now said...

GOOOO YOU!!! I'm smiling right now for you!

Katilexis said...


Zena said...

You just made my day!!!

You are so strong!!!

so much love

brie said...

Oooh, I'm jealous, that day sounds fantastic! And -- as someone who is addicted to Xanax, trying to go off it, and currently experiencing severe withdrawals, can I just say how damn proud of you I am for not taking one?

You are da raddest. :)

Maeve said...

I haven't commented before, but I have been reading your blog for awhile. I'm so glad to hear you had a good day. I hope you have many more soon!!!

I Hate to Weight said...

before i had my lasix surgery, i'd heard that they usually, but not always, give you valium. oooh, i was interested in that valium

when i got to the surgi-center, i oh-so-off-the-cuff asked the receptionist if they "give you anything for the procedure." she said, "usually, but be sure to ask."

i got a little anxious -- was there a chance they weren't going to give it to me?

that wasn't going to happen (i really WAS afraid of the procedure. my heart was racing and i was shaking a little. and i'm sure you're afraid of the dentist too!)

when the assistant took me for a couple of tests, i oh-so-nonchalantly asked, "do they give you anything for the procedure?". sure, she said. make sure to ask

when the nurse asked, "do you want a valium?" "YES", roared thru my lips. did i sound over-eager?

the doctor came in and queried, "did you choose to take the valium"?

yes, yes, a million times "yes"!

i got the valium,have perfect eyesight and haven't thought of it since. and ooohhhh, i loved my klonopin. lisa, it can be okay.

so glad you had a binge-free day? your giving your body a vacation. i hope you can feel proud. even if you're terrified that you gained ten pounds just from being in the same house as a kitchen, this is a huge deal. congrats

justlikethat said...

I am happy for this day, you deserve it.
I have just started a blog too since finding the world of recovery blogs and reading posts like this. It has made the last 3 days of my life hope-filled. Thank you!