so, we had a wicked ice storm in the night and Emma's school was cancelled for today. Chris still had to go to class today though (stupid). Also, my doctor's office called this morning and cancelled my appt because Dr. Sean is sick. They asked if I wanted to come in and see someone else but I said no. I have an appt with Dr. S. next week and my chest is feeling a bit better so i think I am ok. Also, I called the ask a nurse hotline last night because it was feeling pretty bad and the nurse said from what I was describing it sounded like a gallbladder attack. So I looked gallbladder stuff up online and it kind of looks like that is what it was. I thought only old people had problems with their gallbladders! So if any of you have had experience with this I would be interested to hear about it.
So here is my moment of ED stupidity for the day:
I was feeling some anxiety about lunch, plus I really wanted a lemon bar, so I decided to eat the lemon bar and then purge everything. This despite the whole chest pain/throwing up blood thing. In fact, ED convinced me that it would actually be a good thing if I threw up! That way, I could kind of "check out" if i was still bleeding. Ok, have you ever heard anything more ridiculous? But I totally bought it so I grabbed my pampered chef pie server and started trying to pry a lemon bar out of the pan. I was shoving the point of the pie server into the bars with such force that it slipped loose and totally gashed my thumb, which hurt like crazy. After hopping around the kitchen and dropping the S-bomb a few times I checked out my thumb and it did not look good. But dood, I am home alone with the girls and the van is totally iced over and i have no idea how I will make it to the urgent care for stitches. So in the end, I have decided to tape it up with some butterfly tape I found in our first aid kit and hope for the best.
I did not pursue the lemon bar (or the purge) any further. I took the whole thing as a SIGN that i am not supposed to purge today and I had better straighten up and fly right otherwise more crappy things are going to happen to me.
Later I did de-ice the van and try to take the girls to Wal-mart, only to get stuck in the parking lot. Fortunately my neighbors were kind enough to push me back into my parking spot. So I guess I am stuck here for today. AND it is Chris' long day at school.
The walls are totally starting to close in. Oh well, at least I still have my laptop and my sense of humor.
Judgement and Regrets
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