I am feeling really great today! I have not purged since tuesday!!!!! I am in Waterloo and we went to a New Year get together last night and there was SO MUCH FOOD! Usually at an event like that I hold out as long as I can, and then give in and overeat and then sneak off and throw up (except everyone knows what I am doing since they all see me stuffing my face). Last night I was determined to be successful! My strategy at first was to just stick to safe foods. I brought a veggie and lowfat dip tray so there would be somthing I could eat. So I munched on veggies for awhile, but eventually I really wanted to try these three different bean dishes that looked pretty good. So I just had a few spoonfulls of each. Then I started to feel panicky, like I was going to overeat, so I just removed myself from the food and went to hang out in a different part of the house. I got caught up in conversation with friends and family and a miraculous thing happened! I forgot about the food in the other room! Amazing!
I barely made it up until midnight and am now exhausted and ready to go home.
Oh, yes, the doctor's office called me and my potassium is ok. So that is good.
I have a few new year's resolutions:
Drink less pop. Don't know yet how to quantify that. Just "less".
Drink "more" water.
Stop purging (this one is always on the list).
Lose some of the weight I have gained since taking Seroquel (sorry- just being honest).
Be kinder to myself.
Be a good friend.
Ok I had better be done there so I dont get overwhelmed. I can think of about a million areas in my life where I need improvement.
One last thing- sorry I have fallen behind on everyone's blogs. I am out of town and things have been a little hectic. But I have been thinking about you all, old friends, and newcomers to my blog, and look forward to getting back in touch. Also, the support you have given me the last couple of days has been really great. Love you all!
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