Chris had the day off today so we got to spend some time together which was nice. This morning we put Annie in the stroller and went for a really long walk. The we bolth ran errands, and I did a little packing and cleaning. Borring stuff.
We went out this afternoon in search of a donut cutter. It's like a cookie cutter in the shape of a circle with a circle in the middle. I want to make raised donuts. Now that I am doing better and allowing myself to eat "fear foods" I am OBSESSED with my deep fat fryer, which had been collecting dust in the closet. Last week I made potato chips and onion rings. I was thinking of having some family over and frying donuts. How fun would that be!
Anyway, we could not find a donut cutter anywhere, not even Bed Bath and Beyond. They even had bamboo toast tongs! But no donut cutter! Whatever...
The reality of the move is starting to set in and i am feeling a little overwhelmed. Our landlords dropped off this list of how exactly they want everything cleaned and holy crap it's going to be alot of work! But my mother in law is going to help me clean, so hopefully it won't be too bad.
I am REALLY excited to see Emma. I even had a dream last night that she was home. Oh, I talked to her today and she said that her grandma threw a big rock at her for no reason and it hit her in the shoulder. She said she started to cry, and her grandma just laughed, and then her grandpa started to comfort her and yelled at her grandma in Bosnian! What the heck is wrong with these people? I guess now I know why Zlatko is such a turd. Emma said that he has been going out all day with his girlfriend (fiancee?) and not coming back until after she is in bed. So Emma has basically been left with her grandparents every day, and they don't speak english! This makes me sad and angry. I just want her home. It is going to be a loooong time before I let her go to Bosnia again, if ever.
Well, thats about it for now. I hope everyone has a happy 4th of july! I know it sounds cheesy, but think about declaring "independence" from your eating disorder, even if only for one day. Yeah that is pretty cheesy. sheesh.
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